In these moments we are invited to raise the veil from over our eyes... Why are we scared? What are you hiding from? What layers of social conditioning and trauma do we have to shed in order for our light to shine bright like the sun?
Just the thought of being super vulnerable brings tears to my eyes. I realize that from a very young age I was robbed of my innocence, stripped of my vulnerable nature... I was left feeling insecure and unsafe... So I built defenses, I put up walls and hid behind a false persona, a false reality... Which lead me to be unhappy, lost, and ultimately left searching for anything and everything to fill the void that I felt in my heart and soul.
I’ve done an incredible amount of work on myself these past years... Stripping away the layers of trauma and conditioning that I let hinder me from fully experiencing life and expressing my truth. Although I’ve done a lot of work - I’m still working. This kind of change doesn’t happen overnight. When I look back at who I was five years ago, seven... Ten years ago - it’s hard for me to even comprehend who that person was anymore.
But shes still here, and I love her. I want to hold her tight and tell her she is worthy, that she has nothing to prove, and that she is perfect exactly the way that she is. I want to tell her she is safe and free to express herself in whatever way feels best. She needs to know that it wasn’t her fault, and that she deserves to be innocent, that she deserves to feel secure. I want her to know that she is safe now, and that there is no reason to hide anymore. Her truth is worth sharing, and her story will be heard.
We are all here to help each other rise above fear and stand in our power. Before we can do that though, we MUST open up to vulnerability. It’s time to feel butt naked in the middle of a crowd asking ourselves “what do we have to hide?” It’s time to really take a look at our shadows and to begin taking responsibility for our lives and how we live each and everyday.
I am actively moving past the hurdles and road blocks that continue to prevent me from being fully present with myself. I realize I desire to distract myself because I fear what I do won’t be good enough. My child self is scared to fully let go of the things that make her feel comfortable in a very uncomfortable world.
I see her... I feel her... I know her... My job is to teach my mind, body, and soul that it is safe... It’s OK to feel vulnerable... I am free to express myself, and that freedom and liberation are on the other side.
I am safe.
I am loved.
I am happy.
I am vulnerable.
I am powerful.
I am brave.
I am enough.
To all the beautiful souls working through their shadows and becoming better versions of themselves everyday <3 I love you.
With Love and Light,